Ok so things still the same but we are doing ok. Shawn is still looking for a job but I am not feeling so insane anymore. I feel positive. He will find a job and everything will be ok. Anyway Keelin's been swimming this summer and this week starts Vacation Bible School. Today we went to the High Museum to see Monet's Waterlilies with my dad for fathers day. I love the High I could stay all day I think. Keelin was very impressed. Last week I took Keelin to White water with Brenna's sister in law and her little girl. It was just the 4 of us and we had a blast. It was Keelin's first water park. She talked non stop about it for 2 days. The week before that we stayed out at Brenna's for 4 days. The kids had soooooo much fun it was hard to leave. Kinsey and Bowie are Frick and Frack (SP?) anyway, Kids been playing in the baby pool and getting eaten by mosquitoes and catching fire flies so I would say summer is off to a big start! I wish i could blog more but my computer finally bit the dust so I can't get on it often. I will try to blog more. I miss everyone!

MAYYYYYY

I figured I would post of few pictures from Easter, I never did because I didn't take any so I had to get them from my mothers camera. Things are still the same I think I might be going insane. This is the craziest thing. We have applied for a few hundred jobs and I don't know what to do. I am looking for a waitress job now cause we cant both be at home, it would have to temp for me cause I start school in August and there is NO WAY I can do both. It will be hard enough being a mom and having school let alone adding a job in the mix. So I am done with my classes everything passed and all so that is good. Keelins out of school this week and I am happy about not having to take her for awhile. Got her signed up for swimming for the whole summer so she is very excited. Kinsey is OK both girls have colds so of course Kinsey is taking it alot worse than Keelin, I think I slept for about 1 1/2 hours last night. Seriously. The night before was the same except I got to go back to bed yesterday morning.

kinda bothered

I just wanted to throw this out there. I am kinda bothered by the Obama not doing the whole prayer day thing. I like prayer day.

STILL THE SAME

Well things are still the same. Shawn is still looking for a job and it is the most frustrating thing ever. He has never had this problem in his life. It seems that all the jobs are too far away. Ugh it is so miserable. He has sent his resume to over 100 places. Today he is just going door to door to businesses. We don't know what else to do. So annoying. No one is hiring within a 100 mile radius. If we want to move to south Georgia(which no way would EVER happen) then we would be set or just move out of this state all together. But I got into the nursing program and that is so hard. Anyway poor Shawn he is so frustrated.
Kinsey is doing well. Her levels are still not where we want them but she is looking better. The Dr said we all need to remember how sick she was and how close we came. So in my book she is awesome.
Keelin is doing good. She just finished her soccer season and she had a great season. They had a family cook out at the school after their last game and she got a trophy which she was really excited about. She is out of school soon and keeps me informed of the countdown every morning. She said she just doesn't wasn't to go to 2nd grade!
I had one final in biology last week and my last one on Monday so i need to cram cram cram. I got an A in the class for the 1st bio class. I have been kinda stressed lately(to say the least) and Brenna was going to see her best friend who was on a vacation break from the middle east. He has a beach house in Virginia Beach and she asked me to ride along with her and my best friend who lives a few hours from their met us as well. We had sooooooooooo much fun it was only a day and a half visit but so much fun. We didn't want to leave. Their place at the beach is 5 star and they spoiled us rotten. It was so relaxing. Sad we had so little time but I am happy I get to see Shannon at all!
So everythings still the same----Just hangin in!

things are getting better!

Ok so things are getting better. We recently went to Kansas and had an awesome time visiting relatives. I think I have THE BEST FAMILY EVER!!!!!! My grandmother is awesome, we had the best visit ever. I was so comfortable at her house I never wanted to leave. I was more relaxed than I have been in a long time. Her cooking was great and how awesome to not have to worry about dinner??? The best! The baby actually went to bed with no problem every night! and slept all night. I got to read my book and watch tv. My aunt and uncle were great also. I love being with them and all my cousins. They are very special, generous and giving people. Shawn said something that is pretty awesome and that makes me very proud, he said he never knew families that just step up and help you with everything they have , and will do anything they can. He loved my family and finally got to find out why i love Kansas and I never want to leave when I go and why I always have a little hope that I will one day live there. I always say I can breathe better there, Shawn actually said the same thing the 2nd day we were there. We did actually come home all sick but that's ok it is that time of year. I just have to say I can't believe it that as soon as I leave they get a blizzard!!!!!! I am the one who loves winter the most and never gets to see it and then bam there it is and I have already gone home!
The other thing that is making things look a little better is that I found out this week I was accepted in the nursing program at North Georgia State College and University. I am very excited and nervous. I can barely believe it, I almost didn't think it would happen. So things are getting better!!!!!! Also Shawn got his CDL which is something he has wanted for a long time. He worked so hard for that. I helped him study and that thing scared me, all the things you have to know is overwhelming. There is no way I could pass that thing! So I am very proud of him!!!!

crap

so friday we got the awful news, shawn was permanently laid off. sucks sucks sucks. i guess i shouldnt be suprised but you know it still hurts. what to do what to do i dunno. its kinda exhausting just thinking about it. well we will have to figure it out. its frustrating when you always try to do the right thing and you still get screwed(pardon my french) Shawn is awesome when it comes to work. he will work his ass of. he has NEVER been late and NEVER missed a day since he started 4 years ago. Every review he has had has been perfect. what!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!why!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!ughgfrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr ny wAY(i am typing one handed have kinsey in my lap so everything will be misspelled or not capitalized right)
so today i took keelin and bella putt putting it was fun. then tonight shawn and i had been promising for months that for vday we would take keelin and kins to build a bear. so now i am really tired but the kids have their bears n they r happy.

my doggies

Ok so this past saturday I told Shawn that we were going to check the pound. I had already sent them a lost dog form and called the animal control and reported them missing but it takes like 4 days or so for them to get back to you. So we headed down there Shawn was convinced they would not be there. This place is in a very icky part of town its about 30 minutes away and its on the same road as the jail, dump, health department etc..... so anyway we go in and we start down the first row we had almost gotten down to the end and at the last cage I look in and there is Jessie. I was in total shock. I couldn't believe it. It was like she was looking at me saying Its me Its me!!!!!! I started screaming and running down the aisle out to the front screaming its my dog you have my dog! they told me what to do so I went back in and I thought that Jessie was alone since I never saw thora. But when I went back in Shawn and Keelin had found thora on the next aisle. there were two girls who work there who were like these are your dogs? and we were so excited and I am like yes yes yes and they were saying how Happy they were that we had found them that they are so sweet and that Jessie is the best dog and they wanted her. They told me that they were picked up less than a block from my house at 2am early Friday morning. i saw those dogs at midnight! and somehow they got out and picked up in 2 hours?????? I dunno weird. I really cant say enough about how awesome the girls at the pound were they were the best I want to do something nice for them they were so awesome. They spent time with them in their cages even. The upside of all this is their shots needed to be updated and at the pound they got their shots and they were both micro chipped . they only charged me for one dog which was $55! What a blessing in disguise. I was stressed about the money to pay for new shots but now its all done! Anyway they are here safe and sound-very traumatized but happy.

FOUND THEM :)

I FOUND MY DOGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I WILL POST MORE LATER

my doggies are gone and i don't think they are coming back

my doggies are gone and I don't think they are coming back. I am very sad and I miss them terribly. They say outside only but I guess I have become dependant on them always being there with their smiling faces (yes dogs smile). The are the best watch dogs. A few years ago we just had Jessie and shawn was working 2nd shift. Keelin was in the living room alone and I was in the bedroom packing for our trip to the beach. Keelin started screaming and Jessie was going nuts. I ran in the living room and Keelin was freaking out saying that a man was looking at her through the window. I asked her what he looked like she said black mask that was on his whole head and a brown coat she said it looked like his eyes were popping out and he had black hands but no gloves on-(I would say he was probably black) she said she was face to face with him in the window above our love seat. I wasn't sure if I believed her because she was 4 and she was dramatic but Jessie was going crazy like she was going to eat someone. I left for the beach and the next day my neighbor was attacked, kidnapped and raped by a black man in a mask. My neighbor did escape and the man kidnapped and killed another lady a few miles down the road then thankfully a good citizen shot and killed him. So crazy. I feel bad for not believing Keelin but She was little and I didn't see anybody. But still to this day she can tell you exact detail and they have never changed. Jessie makes me feel safe. They are so good with the kids. I just feel like I will never have dogs as good as them. I drove around for hours yesterday and Shawn did too. I am very sad. Shawn woke up yesterday morning at 4 am for work and when he went outside the gate was standing open and the dogs were gone.

Keelin is sad too. Even Kinsey pointed at the yard and said Dog?dog?dog? cause they always run to the gate to lick her hands when she is outside and she laughs and laughs. I guess we will have to get new dogs. I just dont want to. I just dont feel safe without them.

This is a picture of Jessie when we first got Thora.

A good good day!

Well I am in a good mood. I had a really great day today. Shawn is on his layoff right now so he is at home. Yes he gets on my nerves sometimes but that's ok that's his job! hahaa anyway today my mom watched Keelin and me and Shawn got to have a day date. We went to the morning showing of The Wrestler. I so loved it. It was really great I felt like I was watching someone who really exists and it's like a home movie or something. I felt very invested in this guy. I have always loved Micky Rourke even when everyone made fun of him. So I am happy he decided to do such a great movie. The cool thing is he pretty much got paid nothing. I think he's super cool. Anyway and Marissa Tomei has the best body it's sick. I aspire to look like that in my 40's(yeah like that's gonna happen)

Then after the movie we went over to the mall and walked around for a few minutes and I got some new sunglasses. I typically don't go around spending money but I am having a huge eye issue. I pretty much need to wear a full face mask sunglass if I leave my house otherwise I am sick and have a headache or a full blown migraine. such a mess. And I got new sunglasses already but the lenses madee me so sick i almost crushed them into tiny pieces. I didn't. Anyway so then we went to lunch. It was great really fun. Then we got the Kins and then Keelin. Eventhough I had to clean up a nasty stiny wet mess from our pipe explosion under the kitchen sink I am still in a good mood. School is super stressful for me and I sometimes wonder how I am going to make it. It's so hard. I feel guilty leaving the kids so much. This is the most I have ever left Kinsey. It makes me feel torn. I hate that. But I am going to finish, I have not come this far for it to get me now. No matter what I am in it till the end, whenever and whatever that may be! I gpt my hair cut yesterday and I REALLY like it. I think it's my favorite hair I have ever had! It's not that much different from before but then it is. I love it! I will post a coupe of bad pictures! And don't make fun of me if I am looking off in the distance or have my eyes closed, I have a hard time with flashes, I spent half my birthday in bed cause my sister took my picture. I so could not be famous.

STUPID STUPID SICKNESS,ILLNESS, YUCK

well I am tired. I am just tired. I am still being upbeat but darnit I am tired. Tired of being broke. Tired of school. Tired of cleaning endlessly and most of all tired of the baby sickness. I don't know what to do. We go back to the immunologist at emory soon. I just am ick. and I have a bunch of bills regarding this that came over the weekend and I am like why should i pay when this is not fixed!!! but then I have to remember to be greatful for what I do have. But ugh. I am supposed to take her off her medication every now and then to see what happens. Hahaaaa so fun. Last time was just a notch below medical emergency and I didn't give it to her last night and last night and today were awful. She looks crazy acts crazy and I feel lost. what do you do???? I have now been to:
3 pediatricians
1 dermatologist
1 specialized dermatologist
too many to count er visits
1 immunologist
1 allergist
and here we are. still after almost 6 MONTHS. I know I am feeling sorry for myself. but whatever I am cranky. what's the next step?????????

My grandmother's things

Tonight I was looking through my grandmother's recipe box. I have looked through it so many times and I love all the recipes. Some she cut out of magazines and taped them to an index card and then would comment on the recipe. Others are her handwriting which is very cool and then there are some she has written and then put whose recipe it originally was. I love having this little piece of my grandmother. When she died I was single and living the single life and moving around and whatever. I got to pick a few things of hers to keep. I am soooooo glad I was not an idiot and was able to keep up with them. I have to say they are probably some of my favorite things I have. The recipe box of course is a favorite but I think my all time favorite is this little wall hanging in the bathroom of a little boy getting in the tub with his frog. I remember being little and when I would visit my grandparents and have to go to the bathroom I would stare at that thing, I loved it. And now it's in my bathroom. I think it's awesome. I got a couple of towels-pink ones of course and I use them all the time. I love them. I also got some doilies. Right now I am not using them. When I was single I had them on my dresser but now when laundry and little hands I feel better packing them away till the girls are bigger. Oh and another item that I adore is my little chickens. I collect chickens for my kitchen and my grandmother had a collection as well. I got these tiny little chickens. They are soooo cute. I know there are some things I am forgetting There are some things I packed away for awhile so they will not get broken. HMMM I will have to think about it and post more later. So this week has been slightly exhausting. School started this week and It has been insane. I will have to elaborate later. Let me just say this- It should no longer be luck of the irish---it should be luck of Kelli. Ugh you know- you step in poop and you say well at least I wasnt bare foot. Thats luck of the irish. anyway more later

cleaning up

Well I thought I would post a few pictures from our fantastic Christmas! I had a great Christmas and I am sad it's over but I am optimistic on the year to come. I am hopeful. I am not excited about Keelin going back to school and me going back to school and all that stuff. I have really enjoyed all of us hanging around the house. I got all the Christmas stuff down last night and I have most of the house cleaned which makes me feel really good. I have a nursing exam Jan 9th so I need to be studying it is for a nursing program I am TRYING to get into. Soooooo competitive. Some of these programs i am applying to only take like 30-40 people!!! But like I said I am being hopeful! Right now Shawn's son is here visiting over the holidays and they are getting ready to watch the Falcon's play. So my house has been pretty busy!! I will post more pictures later!!!!